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004. Tempus fugit.

Published by Layla

  Yes, it’s been a month. How time flies! I say this without a trace of irony. Days seem to fly by quickly, and when I say quickly, I mean obscenely fast.  And speaking of time, I’ve spent a lot of time processing what has happened the past month. No one was at fault–and as what I have said previously, it ended the way it did. And even before things ended, I have been obsessing over things that I shouldn’t have. Focusing on these things have made me forget that I have been shutting out other things in my life.

002. I’ve been sick, and it’s not cute: reflections while in the sickbed and others in between

Published by Layla

  Well, hello there. Been pretty ill, and it was not exactly a great sensation. Returning to work felt like having a pair of jelly legs: just feeling wobbly overall. There are times that it felt like my body was in one place and my mind in another. But despite that, I am grateful for the end of each work day, as I get to tick one box for every task accomplished. I have been feeling on edge about something I couldn’t explain, but I am slowly working out through the kinks. Since I have been ill for the most part of the first week of the new year, I have not been able to restart myself where health  (mental and physical) is concerned. Hopefully, I can establish some sort of rhythm: one that’s not so rigid, one that’s a little more forgiving. During my four-day convalescence (I speak as though I am some Victorian maiden wasting away on some mysterious disease), I was able to reflect though. About who I am as a person, …

On grieving and adjusting.

Published by Layla

So it’s been a long time since I have posted anything on here. Not that there’s a want of having anything to say; rather, it’s the Herculean effort taken to process things. So many things happened in the space of two months, ranging from the most mundane to the most painful: so much stuff to deal with at work and school, the slow crumbling of my (already fragile) mental health, and then the loss of a loved one.